Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Bad Mom?
I've started second guessing every decision I make about Perrin. I have this huge fear of screwing up his life or making him hate me for any decision. Even just putting him down for a nap I think, "is he really tired? What if he thinks I'm abandoning him by putting him down to sleep and walking away?" It doesn't seem to matter if it's a small thing or a big thing, but I never know if I'm doing the right thing. Did/does anyone else feel that way? I want to do everything right for him and make sure he has a wonderful, happy, loving life and I might be driving myself crazy over it. :) I love him more than anything and I'm pretty sure I'm doing everything right but I just want to make sure I'm not the only one that has felt that way.
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YES! I had and sometimes still have those same fears. But, we are not perfect and we will sometimes make mistakes. Don't beat yourself up about it. Children don't come with instruction manuals but we do have our Heavenly Father. He has given you those "motherly instincts" for a reason. Trust yourself. You are a wonderful mother and you are doing an amazing job! Perrin loves you, he may not like you at times when he gets older but he will forever love you. Hang in there. ♥ U
Oh no, you're not the only one! I do that as well. Now that she's 5 though, I'm finally trying to listen to the spirit on it. The Lord will let me know if I'm doing something wrong...and He has...and I can correct it. One of the things I LOVED about my dad was that he always came into my room and appologized to me if felt he'd been too harsh or someting. You're a great mom. :^)
You thought you became a mom when you gave birth, but now you can officially be welcomed in to the club! I don't know a mother/caregiver anywhere who hasn't felt this way! It's because you love them. And, odds are, you will do something wrong. You will make your child mad at you. You will hurt his feelings and make him cry. He will eventually think that something you've done is unfair. However, he will know that you love him, and he will love you in return. You are resilient, and so is Perrin. Just love him and you'll be fine.
LOL I know exactly what you mean! I am a super paranoid mommy too. It's pretty darn scary knowing that you are almost completely responsible for how that little person is going to grow and develop into a man. Will the little decisions you make alter their entire existence? Ugh! I hope not! I guess all you can do is care for them with love and respect and say lots of prayers begging for guidance. That's what I do. It's scary but oh so wonderful. Congratulations by the way! I haven't been on blogger forever. Your little guy is darling. What a cute family!!!
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